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This may sound strange to some, but my friends really bother
me. Of course, everyone has friends that do this, but for me
it's a pain, a pain that won't go away, and I can't explain why
it happens. If you are wondering if I hate them, the answer is
no. I really like my friends and their personalities.
I have analyzed my problem time and time over, and I have
come to a conclusion that the time I am most angry is in the
morning. Why? Probably because three of my friends come over
and seem to just set off my buttons. When I'm in this state of
mind, I block things out and concentrate on how to be the meanest
SOB on the block. Sometimes it works really well, other times
I get sucked into being in a good mood.
This morning fit seems to control me and take over my mind,
and especially my mouth. Not only do I rant and rave and tell
people how I feel, I also keep it in my system for most of the
day and single out those who make me feel extremely hostile.
You might be saying to yourself, "I have that problem also".
But for me it seems to happen everyday of every week of every
year.
I have also noticed the things which bother me the most are
when my friends sing very loud, when they have kindergarten conversations,
when they yell back at me, when they ask stupid questions, when
they stare at me, when they try to prove me wrong, and the most
of all: when they tell me what to do.
Yes I am stubborn. I admit it, and yes sometimes I am a pain
in the derriere, but it seems I have some kind of bond to those
who bother me, something which is unexplainable. As a solution,
it would be best fit if I were just to avoid those who bother
me, but that's not what happens.
So how do I control these raging wars going on in my mind?
Easy! I don't! The only way I can get rid of these attitudes
is if the people who make me mad, make me happy. So now I realize
the only solution to my problem is where my problem originated
in the first place. So now I understand why we have friends.
Not only do they serve their purpose to make you happy, but also
to annoy you, and this statement makes me mad! |
